Pensamientos de media noche

Pues nada... que estando ya acostado y a punto de dormirme, me llegó la idea... o la noción,  o el pensamiento... de lo diminuto que soy... y no lo digo en mal sentido, no me siento poca cosa, ni mucho menos, sino literalmente, cuán diminuto soy... al menos, así me sentí estando recostado en mi cama...

Diminuto, en dimension física,  no se porqué lo sentí o pensé...  y no lo digo como algo malo, como que requiera yo crecer, o aumentar o algo por el estilo... simplemente caí en la cuenta de lo diminutos y frágiles que somos como seres vivos... es algo que pues sabes, conoces, entiendes, pero pues no se qué o porqué me surgió esa noción.  No fue algo malo, o desagradable, sino más bien, algo curioso...

En fin... no se porqué,  pero me dieron ganas de comentarlo...

I confess

Bless me father, for I have sinned... it has been eons since my last confession...

And so it is... but who cares anyway??? It's not as if I'm going to confess or something like that... well... I guess every post here is a confession... I confess now and again that I am crazy, that I almost never have anything to say, at least nothing sound or logic...

Anyhow... this is the story up 'til now... I am now studying my doctorate degree, I have a boyfriend with whom I've shared 2 years and a half (almost) of my love and life (hopefully, we will get to share many years more)...

If I had anything to confess, that would be that I'm addicted to porn... yes, I know... "you pervert!!"... but hey, I don't have most people's vice's like tobacco and alcohol, or any other drug.... that doesn't mean I'm cured of all illness...

I am very vulnerable to addictive behaviors, I think. So, I tend to get as far away or at least i try to get as less exposed as possible to anything that can grab me by the collar. Most of the time, I have succeeded, but Alas! for Porn has not been the case... why??? it's easy!!!! nowadays, everything comes down to sex... and even more with young men and teens (which I think it's not correct or good for anyone)...

The solution I've decided to give to my addiction problem???? it's easy... I've erased any movie, that I've collected in my PC, and I've erased the bookmarks from my browser...

I once was able to reduce my anxiety to visit those sites of perdition (hehehe) some long time ago, but got caught up again... I hope this time, it takes longer... I've spent so much time in it and I've been leaving things that I used to do and enjoy just to feed my perverted mind... and yes... I've seen a lot and much more that any sane person should, and I've seen things that no one should see (well, most of them legal, I guess), although I've tried and have succeeded leaving illegal things at bay, I don't need that kind of trouble (even if it is just a glance, I don't want to be part of it)...

I think that with that, this confession is over...

Take care, my none existent  readers XD